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<div style="padding-left: 2%"><small>can't breathe</small></div>


<div style="padding-left:8%"><small>can't... feel</small></div>


<div style="padding-left:4%"><small>where am I?</small></div>



<div style="padding-left:17%"><small>I feel...
<sup>w</sup>rong</small></div>


<div style="padding-left:9%"><small>need to focus...</small></div>

<div style="padding-left:11%">I</div>

<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:17%">can't see anything</div>

<div style="text-align:right">Nrgh... focus...

...who am I? I'm. <small>struggling</small> to remember.
I'm... I was. I'm... part? Of someone greater.

Yes. Yes. Of '''Naka'''.

Hold on, I... gh. Everything... feels so wrong.</div>

<div style="padding-left:35%">...what happened?</div>
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:25%"><small>did anything happen?</small></div>
<div style="text-align:center">wh<sub>ere</sub> am <sup>I</sup>?</div>



...''when'' am I?

<div style="text-align:center">Time feels...</div>


<div style="text-align:left; padding-left:10%"><small>like moving through sludge</small></div><div style="text-align:right; padding-right:10%"><small>like everything is moving</small></div>

<div style="padding-left:45%">feels so</div>

<div style="text-align:center"><big>d</big> <small>i</small>s<big> <sub>j </sub></big><sup> o<small>i</small> </sup> <sub> n</sub><big><sup><sub>t</sub></sup></big>e <small>d</small></div>







feels like I'm <sub>not in control</sub>

that. right. the sludge.

Aeternam.

that damn meteor. got attacked.

<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:30%"><small>panicked</small></div>

<div style="padding-left: 20%">split myself up. to buy time.</div>


...Chikara.

<div style="padding-left: 40%">she's</div>

<div style="text-align:center"><small>the other</small> <big>part of me</big></div>



going to <sup>get</sup> <sub>help</sub>

I'm...

<small>where am I?</small>





<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:11%">fuck.</div>



<div style="text-align:center"><big>'''Carynthia.'''</big></div>


flung myself.

<div style="padding-left:1%">far as I could</div>

<div style="padding-left:2%">of course it'd be here</div>


<div style="padding-left:5%">haven't seen it in <sub>centuries</sub></div>

<div style="padding-left:8%">can't see it now</div>



<div style="text-align:center">have to hold out.</div>
<div style="padding-left:33%">who knows how long it'll take</div>
<div style="padding-left:66%">Chikara <sub>won't fail</sub></div>











...it hurts


so much




<div style="text-align:center"><small>just existing like this is painful</small></div>

<div style="text-align:right">like something is trying to <sub>squeeze me</sub>.</div>
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:5%">ab<sup>sorb</sup> me.</div>

<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:1%">probably not far off the mark</div>



<div style="text-align:center"><big>hurts like hell</big></div>
<div style="padding-left:52%"><small>I've been through worse.</small></div>


<div style="padding-left:36%">can't even tell how <sup>long</sup> it's been</div>

<div style="padding-left:22%">hours?</div>
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:39%">days?</div>
<div style="padding-left:32%">weeks?</div>





<div style="padding-left:11%">...years?</div>

no. Chikara






Chikara won't fail.



<div style="text-align:center">'''I''' won't fail</div>

I'll wait as long as it takes.

if the Aeternam thinks it can just <sub>assimilate me</sub> if it waits long enough

<div style="padding-left:13%">it needs a lesson on how <big>stubborn</big> I can be</div>

I refuse to lose to this damned disease.



I just

hope Chikara's doing alright



<div style="text-align:right">I'm no longer sure what parts of me I left with her</div><br />
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:11%">I don't think the split went right</div><br />
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:16%">I've never used this power.</div><br />
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:22%">just diving into using it like that was reckless. stupid</div>
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:18%"><small><sup>I didn't have a choice</sup></small></div>



<div style="text-align:center">I'm just going to have to <small>trust</small> that things work out</div>








until then





















here I wait






























struggling to stay afloat in an endless black sea






...heh


not sure when I got so <sub>poetic</sub>




must be how <sup>delirious</sup> I am






I really can't tell

what's happening

or when's happening












<div style="padding-left:22.22222222222222222%"><small>can't tell when these thoughts are happening</small></div>
<div style="padding-left:22.3223843636461743167536317376371377846%"><small><sup>relative to each other or otherwise</sup></small></div>




<div style="padding-left:16.52456%">everything's so <sup><sub>muddled</sub></sup></div>




<div style="padding-left:8.45672%"><small><sub>insulated</sub></small></div>



















hang on



I

hear something?






<div style="padding-left:33.3333333333333333%"><small>hahaha</small></div>

<div style="text-align:center"><small>i must really be going crazy</small></div>




<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:33.3333333%"><small>it almost sounds like</small></div>
<div style="text-align:right; padding-right:30%"><small><sup>music?</sup></small></div>








no





no, I'm.


<div style="padding-left: 1%"><small>I'm not imagining that</small></div>



something's different.









<div>I feel more</div>
<div style="padding-left: 6%"><small>clear?</small></div>






<div style="padding-left:12%"><small>like a fading headache</small></div>








<div style="padding-left:24%"><small>is</small></div>
<div style="padding-left:25%"><small>is it me or is it. brighter?</small></div>



<div style="padding-left:22%"><small>I.</small> see something?</div>



<div style="padding-left:40%">is that</div>




<div style="text-align:center">a '''<span style="color:#00f">sun</span>'''?</div>